''Always be kinder than you have to''
Last week my classmates in school found out I had a blog. I got super scared and was so afraid of being bullied, and I still am. I have opened myself up so much for this blog, and I haven’t even had a thought of the consiquens it had.
I don’t know if I want to keep writing on this blog. I created this blog so that I could write myself off. Every thought I had, like a journal.
It feels so open now. I don’t know what to do.
And I’m so sorry for my readers that my blog was on private. ❤
Just wanted to do a quick little update, I just had a english test, it went good. I hope. Anyways! Have a good day! ❤
Today is wednesday, that means painting at Röda Stens konsthall. Always fun, I finished the schabloon I started with last week.
Next week I’m gonna spray paint it. This is my bestfriends picture. link to his blog here.
When I paint or create something I stop thinking about all the bad shit. And it’s so relieving.
I’m gonna talk to my boyfriend now, say goodnight.
Goodnight, sleep tight! ❤
Today I’m going to Gothenburg! I wasn’t in school today, I had pain in my little tummy this morning.
I get so stressed out by not being in school, and that only makes my depression worse. But going to school makes me sad. It’s like plus minus one. I feel like a failure, I have F in one subject, it stresses me out even more.
See you later guys ❤
So I started watching a K-drama before! It was super exciting, I started watching “W Two Worlds” it was about a girl who worked at the hospital.
And her dad was a comic book writer, somehow she ended up in the comic book.
I thought it was super intressting and exciting. It was a little bit hard because you need to read the subtitles all the time. So you can’t pick up your phone because then you will miss all the episode.
I will defiently watch more of this series!!
So I was at the hospital again today, they took 5 bloodtests. So I was really dizzy after and went home and slept to about an hour ago.
Now I’m watching a K-drama, W Two Worlds. It’s really intressting. But I have to read the subtitels all the time 😂
Anyways see you guys later! Have a good evening!
I LITERALLY CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.
My day has been shit. Shit from the beginning to the end. I missed school today for my pshycologist and for my doctor. Gonna miss the whole day tomorrow or just a little bit, don’t know. But I’m so stressed.
I have to run some more tests tomorrow, the doctor I had today was really good. So that calms me alot actually. I’m so scared that I have cancer, and I can notice on the doctors that they also are scared.
I don’t know how to feel happy, I’m sad all the fricking time. My pshycologist has diagnosed me with depression. He did it the last time I was there.
And it feels like I’m just talking about how I sad I am, and I feel like a problem. Because everybody talks about me like a problem. And I ruin for everybody all the time. But this blog is my diary.
Anyways, tomorrow I’m gonna try to watch a K-drama if I have time. One of my readers said I should watch it! And I defiently will!
The weather sucked today. Haha this day has been shit.
