Why my blog was on private.

Last week my classmates in school found out I had a blog. I got super scared and was so afraid of being bullied, and I still am. I have opened myself up so much for this blog, and I haven’t even had a thought of the consiquens it had.

I don’t know if I want to keep writing on this blog. I created this blog so that I could write myself off. Every thought I had, like a journal.

It feels so open now. I don’t know what to do.

And I’m so sorry for my readers that my blog was on private. ❤

Art.

Today is wednesday, that means painting at Röda Stens konsthall. Always fun, I finished the schabloon I started with last week.

Next week I’m gonna spray paint it. This is my bestfriends picture. link to his blog here.

When I paint or create something I stop thinking about all the bad shit. And it’s so relieving.

I’m gonna talk to my boyfriend now, say goodnight.

Goodnight, sleep tight! ❤

On the road again.

Today I’m going to Gothenburg! I wasn’t in school today, I had pain in my little tummy this morning.

I get so stressed out by not being in school, and that only makes my depression worse. But going to school makes me sad. It’s like plus minus one. I feel like a failure, I have F in one subject, it stresses me out even more.

See you later guys ❤

W two worlds

So I started watching a K-drama before! It was super exciting, I started watching “W Two Worlds” it was about a girl who worked at the hospital.

And her dad was a comic book writer, somehow she ended up in the comic book.

I thought it was super intressting and exciting. It was a little bit hard because you need to read the subtitles all the time. So you can’t pick up your phone because then you will miss all the episode.

I will defiently watch more of this series!!

A sad day

I LITERALLY CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.

My day has been shit. Shit from the beginning to the end. I missed school today for my pshycologist and for my doctor. Gonna miss the whole day tomorrow or just a little bit, don’t know. But I’m so stressed.

I have to run some more tests tomorrow, the doctor I had today was really good. So that calms me alot actually. I’m so scared that I have cancer, and I can notice on the doctors that they also are scared.

I don’t know how to feel happy, I’m sad all the fricking time. My pshycologist has diagnosed me with depression. He did it the last time I was there.

And it feels like I’m just talking about how I sad I am, and I feel like a problem. Because everybody talks about me like a problem. And I ruin for everybody all the time. But this blog is my diary.

Anyways, tomorrow I’m gonna try to watch a K-drama if I have time. One of my readers said I should watch it! And I defiently will!

The weather sucked today. Haha this day has been shit.