Who am I? I am lost.

The latest couple of days I’ve been having so many brain-ghosts. I don’t know who I am? or what do I want to be? I don’t know what my purpose is. What do I want to work with? I have so many dreams, expensive dreams, I have dreams since my childhood that I don’t know how to reach.

I think I have a clue, but I think everything will work out in the end. But I still have so many dreams, when I was like 6 I wanted to work with dolphins, I still want to work with the ocean, I want to become a marine biologist now. When I was little I wanted to draw and design my own cruise ship, and I started a little when I was 13, I turn 16 now, and I still want to, but a yacht nowadays.

Everything I want is crazy expensive, I’m not born into a luxury lifestyle. So that makes it even harder, sometimes it feels like I just should be a lawyer or start a company that makes plastic, just to earn money, a crapload of money. But I don’t want to, I want to have a fun job but still work with what I want. I need to make my decision in 3 years, I feel lost.

I live by the ocean, my mom and dad work on cruise ships. In fact, all my relatives do. Maybe that’s where I got my dreams. I don’t know where I wanted to come with this blog post, have you guys ever felt lost? 20180316_152308605337257.jpg

2 thoughts on “Who am I? I am lost.

  1. Same girl. I feel really lost and i just want to listen to 21 guns – greenday and cry all day lol. I want to have the kind of romance they have in the movie the notebook. But am i ever going to find passion like that in a world full of MUDDAFUCCKIN instagram kultur???? asso seriöst allt nuförtiden är så fake finns ens äkta kärlek längre seriöst? Jag tror också jag vill leva i lyx med resor och mat i överflöd men jag har typ två tusen kronor så jag skulle kunna leva så i ungefär en timme.

    Hoppas du mår bättre snart och hittar dig sj för jag vet hur du känner vill bara skrika i min kudde

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