The latest couple of days I’ve been having so many brain-ghosts. I don’t know who I am? or what do I want to be? I don’t know what my purpose is. What do I want to work with? I have so many dreams, expensive dreams, I have dreams since my childhood that I don’t know how to reach.
I think I have a clue, but I think everything will work out in the end. But I still have so many dreams, when I was like 6 I wanted to work with dolphins, I still want to work with the ocean, I want to become a marine biologist now. When I was little I wanted to draw and design my own cruise ship, and I started a little when I was 13, I turn 16 now, and I still want to, but a yacht nowadays.
Everything I want is crazy expensive, I’m not born into a luxury lifestyle. So that makes it even harder, sometimes it feels like I just should be a lawyer or start a company that makes plastic, just to earn money, a crapload of money. But I don’t want to, I want to have a fun job but still work with what I want. I need to make my decision in 3 years, I feel lost.
I live by the ocean, my mom and dad work on cruise ships. In fact, all my relatives do. Maybe that’s where I got my dreams. I don’t know where I wanted to come with this blog post, have you guys ever felt lost?