Today I’m going to Gothenburg! I wasn’t in school today, I had pain in my little tummy this morning.
I get so stressed out by not being in school, and that only makes my depression worse. But going to school makes me sad. It’s like plus minus one. I feel like a failure, I have F in one subject, it stresses me out even more.
See you later guys ❤
I LITERALLY CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.
My day has been shit. Shit from the beginning to the end. I missed school today for my pshycologist and for my doctor. Gonna miss the whole day tomorrow or just a little bit, don’t know. But I’m so stressed.
I have to run some more tests tomorrow, the doctor I had today was really good. So that calms me alot actually. I’m so scared that I have cancer, and I can notice on the doctors that they also are scared.
I don’t know how to feel happy, I’m sad all the fricking time. My pshycologist has diagnosed me with depression. He did it the last time I was there.
And it feels like I’m just talking about how I sad I am, and I feel like a problem. Because everybody talks about me like a problem. And I ruin for everybody all the time. But this blog is my diary.
Anyways, tomorrow I’m gonna try to watch a K-drama if I have time. One of my readers said I should watch it! And I defiently will!
The weather sucked today. Haha this day has been shit.
Today I need to be home from school, I’m gonna go to a pshycologist and then a doctor. I just want it all to be over now, I hate to be in pain all the time.
And I hate to feel so lonely in this world (I know that I’m not lonely). I’m tired of all my sick thoughts. I just want it all to be okey again. Me having good grades and not worry about not being accepted to any schools.
I had so much pain today also, so I didn’t go to school. Typical me, typical life.
I’ve been sad all day, I miss my boyfriend so much. I have pain all the time and I’ve washed my shoes 3 times in the washing machine.
But I took a long walk, so it made me feel a little better, I talked with my best friend and he was shopping shoes. So it was fun, I saw yesterday that the offspring is going to come to Liseberg this summer, guess who’s gonna be there? 😉
Look at my sandwich I made before, isn’t it inspo? I feel like a real instagrammer. Hahaha, it was so yummy.