What have I been doing this five days?

It’s in the middle of the night right now, but it’s Swedens nationality day tomorrow so we have a day off from school. Anyways, it’s been like 5 days since I posted, and I’m sorry about that. But I’ve had so much going on the latest couple of days. This weekend I was with my boyfriend, and I wanted to be with him and not keep up with the blog. I was in school today btw.

I was at the hospital two days ago, and I got some new medications that I’m going to take for 2 months. It’s exhausting. But it will turn out good, I hope.

Last Friday we were on a checkup for our car, everything was perfect with it.

Once I got home I took a glass of ice tea, it was good. Hahahahah, the bunny that’s on the floor is our bunny’s toy. He likes to lick on it??

Here is me and my boyfriend, I love him so so much. Look how cute we are, I miss him, but we will meet again on Friday <3.

I spent the whole weekend with my boyfriend, so on Saturday his best friend and his best friends girlfriend went with us and took a little bath in the little sea nearby. I’ve only swum in the ocean before, so it was the first time ever my foot was dipped in the sea.

I have to study for a test on the second world war tomorrow, not so fun :/

And I have the biggest stomach pain from the medications I’m taking right now, hope the pain fades off soon 😦

On my way home

You may think that I’ve been in bed all day and slept. No, I’ve been at a doctor in Gothenburg. We did some allergy tests, apparently I’m allergic to cats and dogs. But I’ve never felt anything when I’ve been petting dogs, so that’s weird.

Anyways, now I’m on my way home. I’m so tired, it’s not even fun. Tomorrow I’m going to my psychologist, not so fun either. I wish I didn’t need to go to all these places, on monday I’m going to the hospital again for my stomach.

I wish I was whole and well, I must have very bad carma 🙃

They dotted different liquides on my arm, then they poked tiny holes. And then they saw what I reacted to. It was so easy? But we went there because my pollen medications have stopped working.

Gothenburg looks so beautiful in the summer 😍

Now me and dad are blasting Avicii on the way home

GOODMORNING GOODMORNING

Hahahaha no I’m not that happy as I sound, actually I’m really tired and it feels like I’m going to throw up all the time.

Do you want to know where I slept tonight?

In our sofa, yes that’s right. It was so fucking warm in my room. So I walked out with my blanket. And spent the night in our livingroom. And we have a rabbit, and everytime my blanket fell on the floor he came and attacked it.

So no school for me today.

Carrie makes the best quotes ever, omg I was just thinking about wich series me and my boyfriend should watch this weekend. It’s obvious, the Carrie diaries.

Hello Again

I’ve really missed this blog, I’ve noticed that I become more sad when I don’t write.

Well, since the last time I wrote on here I’ve done pretty much actually. Hahaha, but still can’t drag my ass to school 🙃

Anyways, I was in Poland with my

class. It was an experience, we visited Auswitch.

I wasn’t in school all last week, because. I’ve catched another sickeness again. UTI, but it’s gone now so it’s okay. How many times have you’ve been on antibiotics? My latest half year, I’ve taken antibiotics 3 times. It’s crazy when you think about it.

I’m going to the hospital again the 4th of June, I wonder what they’ll say. I’m actually really nervous. But whatever happens they’ll find out what’s wrong with me.

Here comes some pictures!!

Took my first dopp (as we say in Sweden) in the ocean last friday. Let me tell you, it was so cold. But it’s so hot outside right now, like 26°C. 😅

Art.

Today is wednesday, that means painting at Röda Stens konsthall. Always fun, I finished the schabloon I started with last week.

Next week I’m gonna spray paint it. This is my bestfriends picture. link to his blog here.

When I paint or create something I stop thinking about all the bad shit. And it’s so relieving.

I’m gonna talk to my boyfriend now, say goodnight.

Goodnight, sleep tight! ❤

On the road again.

Today I’m going to Gothenburg! I wasn’t in school today, I had pain in my little tummy this morning.

I get so stressed out by not being in school, and that only makes my depression worse. But going to school makes me sad. It’s like plus minus one. I feel like a failure, I have F in one subject, it stresses me out even more.

See you later guys ❤

A sad day

I LITERALLY CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.

My day has been shit. Shit from the beginning to the end. I missed school today for my pshycologist and for my doctor. Gonna miss the whole day tomorrow or just a little bit, don’t know. But I’m so stressed.

I have to run some more tests tomorrow, the doctor I had today was really good. So that calms me alot actually. I’m so scared that I have cancer, and I can notice on the doctors that they also are scared.

I don’t know how to feel happy, I’m sad all the fricking time. My pshycologist has diagnosed me with depression. He did it the last time I was there.

And it feels like I’m just talking about how I sad I am, and I feel like a problem. Because everybody talks about me like a problem. And I ruin for everybody all the time. But this blog is my diary.

Anyways, tomorrow I’m gonna try to watch a K-drama if I have time. One of my readers said I should watch it! And I defiently will!

The weather sucked today. Haha this day has been shit.