Tired girl.

How can I sum up my day? Sadness, sadness, and fell asleep 3 times today at school. AT MY MATH CLASS. HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE. IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED ME BEFORE.
But I’m so tired, I got to sleep 6 hours last night, so I understand why I’m so tired.
But my day has been really sad also, I don’t know if the weather has something to do with it. But I got a comment today that made me break down, literally. So, not so fun…

I have a looooong day tomorrow, I start at 8 am and my school ends… at 16:30. So, I will be sleepy tomorrow also, but on the bright side. I have a 2-hour long break so I can study. Hahaha, I’m trying to look on the bright side nowadays, prepare for a new happier me.
And I have to stop talking about my school so much?

I’m in my bed now, and it’s so cozy and I’m going to pack up my winter duvet soon. But from one thing to another, every other animal on earth get winter fur, but we have to buy coats, jackets and extra warm clothes? I think it’s really weird, why is every other organism suited for earth and not us… These Instagram conspiracies make me crazy.

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Look at my new notebook, I have this for my chemistry class. Haha I think it’s sooo cute.

Really?! again???

This weekend I went to my boyfriend, so right after I came home from school on Friday my father drove me to his house. My boyfriend had some friends over and it appeared some alcohol, I dropped my phone, so it looks like someone drove over my phone 10x times. I just had the screen fixed, sometimes I just want to bang my head against a wall.

Nothing more has happened really, we’ve been sleeping mostly, I’m so tired, and tomorrow I’m going up 5AM, I have an early week this week. But that gives me time to study after school, so it’s good. I have 2 tests next week and one paper to hand in this week. So it’s a quite soft week.

Right now I’m looking for cookies I just to eat when I was younger, haha so random. But my parents used to buy them in Germany, and it was Halloween cookies, they had a little ghost on them. Do anybody know what cookies I’m talking about?

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Haha look at my little hand

-> School

Right now I’m sitting on the bus, I just want this day to go quick so I can go home and study some more math then sleep. I only slept 6 hours tonight, and I’ll probably do it again today. But on Wednesday I start 12:50 😍

We have a math test on thursday, 3 chapters. And last week I got a brilliant idea to redo the 3 chapters, ’cause I didn’t understand anything.

What more do I have this week? It’s not so much I think, we’re going to stsrt something new in English and Swedish, but it’s usually no homework. I have some words in German to study.

I have to change bus now, see you later!

Hahahah look at my ugly ass hand, I shouldv’e cropped the picture.

On my way home

You may think that I’ve been in bed all day and slept. No, I’ve been at a doctor in Gothenburg. We did some allergy tests, apparently I’m allergic to cats and dogs. But I’ve never felt anything when I’ve been petting dogs, so that’s weird.

Anyways, now I’m on my way home. I’m so tired, it’s not even fun. Tomorrow I’m going to my psychologist, not so fun either. I wish I didn’t need to go to all these places, on monday I’m going to the hospital again for my stomach.

I wish I was whole and well, I must have very bad carma 🙃

They dotted different liquides on my arm, then they poked tiny holes. And then they saw what I reacted to. It was so easy? But we went there because my pollen medications have stopped working.

Gothenburg looks so beautiful in the summer 😍

Now me and dad are blasting Avicii on the way home

A sad day

I LITERALLY CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE.

My day has been shit. Shit from the beginning to the end. I missed school today for my pshycologist and for my doctor. Gonna miss the whole day tomorrow or just a little bit, don’t know. But I’m so stressed.

I have to run some more tests tomorrow, the doctor I had today was really good. So that calms me alot actually. I’m so scared that I have cancer, and I can notice on the doctors that they also are scared.

I don’t know how to feel happy, I’m sad all the fricking time. My pshycologist has diagnosed me with depression. He did it the last time I was there.

And it feels like I’m just talking about how I sad I am, and I feel like a problem. Because everybody talks about me like a problem. And I ruin for everybody all the time. But this blog is my diary.

Anyways, tomorrow I’m gonna try to watch a K-drama if I have time. One of my readers said I should watch it! And I defiently will!

The weather sucked today. Haha this day has been shit.

I was at Ullared.

Today I went to Gekås Ullared, they sell cheap stuff and I think it’s Swedens biggest shopping mall. Anyways, we went with school and I sat in the bus 3 hours just to get there… and then 3 hours home again. I’m so tired now, you can’t even imagine 🙂20180314_1116461202019480.jpgThis is the store entrance, nothing special.

I didn’t buy so much… Hahaha, I didn’t need anything, but I got some underwear and some stuff like that.  I can do a haul tomorrow if you’d like?

It’s like IKEA, but with everything. Their restaurant is even like IKEAs, they have the same menu and everything, maybe they have the same catering firm.

This was on the way home, I thought it was really pretty with the boats and the little port.

Tired.

Right now I’m super tired, I couldn’t sleep last night and I think I fell asleep around 2 AM, I was literally dead in school today. When I got home from school I started to apply for some gymnasiums (school after high school in Sweden).

Do you wan’t to know what I really like to do? drive around with no really destination, but I always end up on Mcdonalds drive-thru anyways….
But it’s like therapy to drive around listening to high music, I love it. I can’t wait for when I have a ”real” license and can drive a real car. But that will have to wait till I’m 18…

Now I’m gonna eat some yoghurt with bananas.

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